I’m still trying to figure out exactly what kinds of things I want to write about on this blog, so I hope you’ll bear with me if it seems a little unfocused for a while.

I do think I want to write about the art I make, and the thought that goes into each piece. And, more reflectively, where I am in my head and in my life as each piece comes to life.

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I did this little piece last night while sitting at the kitchen table. It’s a little 6x6 inch canvas that I had applied a coat of gesso to, but didn’t actually have a plan for. And I ordered an acrylic paint marker that I received day before yesterday. So I was sitting at the kitchen table (which is currently serving as a temporary studio until the remodel of my studio is complete) with various art supplies scattered before me, and I just decided to pick up my little canvas and my little paint pen and doodle. This picture only shows the front of the canvas, but all four sides of the canvas are marked as well, and you can see the edges in the video I made in this post on Instagram. (Swipe or click to see the second image, which is the video.)

The doodle style is one I have played with before on paper, and a number of sketchbook examples can be found here. Most of the work I do has lots of color, but it’s fun to do something black and white from time to time, sort of as a palate cleanser. I really like the result, and I think I might pick up some more of these little canvases and do a series of these funky little black and white doodles.

I don’t like to spend a lot of time thinking about the art I make, which is why I am so drawn to abstract art. For me, art is as much a meditation as it is anything else. If I had to sit down and meticulously plan out everything I paint or draw, I wouldn’t want to make art at all, because I’d spend all my time planning, and never spend any time doing, in fear that I would make a mistake that I couldn’t recover from.

I’m such a planner in my daily life. Are my clothes ready for work? Is my lunch packed? What do we need to get at the grocery store? It used to be a real source of anxiety for me, always needing to have a plan for everything. It’s a personality trait I’ve really worked on softening. Obviously you still need to plan some things sometimes, but making my weird, abstract art has allowed me to flex the muscles in the part of my brain that find pleasure in flying by the seat of my pants.

It turns out that when I don’t look at anything that ends up on my paper or my canvas as a mistake but rather as an opportunity, that I make some pretty cool things. If you asked me, while standing in front of a piece of my art, where the mistakes happened, I could probably show you. But you would never know, because I somehow always manage to incorporate them into the final piece.

It’s something I would encourage everyone to try. Have patience with your mistakes. Try to see them for the opportunity they are.

With deep love,

Bianca